I had a million things to say
And a million things to thank for
And I didn't know that one day
The pain would break open my door
I just think it wasn't fair
To oblige my body to crawl
Under a layer of despair
Nobody could ever control
I could tell you my story
Recall some dramatic events
I could make you feel sorry
For the past I had to invent
For the love you didn't give me
And all that void I had to face
For my life's an absurdity
Sinking slowly into sadness
Sometimes I hope you remember
With a salty tear of regret
That you had once a daughter
Because I'll never forget
I have built my deepest grief
On this lack of explanation
Which has twisted my belief
And has shaped my damnation
Nobody never told me why
Life is such a suffering
In god we trust is the reply
That makes you think you're something
And mighty death keeps laughing at you
While you're wandering in vein
Trying to figure out what's true
In that universe of pain
My world is full of bodies
Enjoying my endless fall
Life is a bed of roses
With no leaves and no petals
I guess for me there is no way
To escape that beautiful death
And I swear the last words I will say
Will shade god's tears and drawn your faith
So please mourn me when I'm dead
Kiss my morituary pall
Spread some roses on my bed
Then go to hell to rock my soul
And when I'm faced with the devil
I'll threw all my sadness at him
And I will not be scared at all
Because I don't believe in him
And if he wants despite all that
To burn me up in his oven
I'm sure god will take my heart
So I can know what is Heaven